I love her. I have loved her since we had been togther. She made me one of the luckiest guys in the world. I thought we would be together for a long ass time. But were not. I lost her. I was afraid of that. I feel very lonley. I want to get back with her so fucking bad that i would do anything. I know I fucked up but im gonna learn from my mistakes. I dont know what to do. I am torn up a lot inside and I hate feeling this way. This hurts me more than people would think. I care about her a lot and it hurts to hear or read something that she does because I cant really support her through it like before. I want to be happy again and get the pain that I have right now away from me.